You finally realised what you are most afraid of being in a ldr - the feeling of having to settle your own emotions. You couldn’t really figure what a friend was trying to tell you, and you could not understand that feeling at all. You thought you were strong enough to handle it, but no. The feeling comes especially harder when you really want to talk/bitch/rant/pour out your emotions to someone, someone close to your heart, someone that only you can trust, someone that is you know will never betray you or speak of such sarcastic remarks, BUT the person can’t be there for you. He/she tells you to talk to someone else about it, and you know that feeling of being “pushed away” to talk to someone else, really really sucks. So much confusion and dilemma. On one hand, you really want to tell the person how sad you are, yet on the other hand you don’t want to be a mood killer. This is when all the thoughts of negative stories of ldr you have read or heard, starts to cloud your mind. You feel so alone, yet you know there are people out there who will listen, however you know there is only one person that you can fully trust with your entire heart. Handling your own emotions, really is very tough. But with all that tries to break you, makes you stronger, xx