Finally catching up after so long, welcome back to motherland @zhixianteo #friends #instasg #instaphoto #instadaily #igsg #igers #vsco #vscocam (at Forty Hands)
I want you. I want your sleepy confused look when you wake up. I want to be the warmth that fills the space in your bed. I want to be the sheets your fingers crave at night; the blanket that wraps around you all night. I want to drink tea with you, share some records we find. I want to talk about everything in the newspapers. I want to discuss with you, to be stubborn and quick-witted with you. I want to have differences between us. I want your flaws. All of them. I want to go into the deepest corners of your mind and never get bored of you. I want to be surprised by the new all the time. I want to look at you like a movie, a living piece of art; always trying to chase what you crave … and capture you.
I am not the first person you loved.
You are not the first person I looked at
with a mouthful of forevers. We
have both known loss like the sharp edge
of a knife. We have both lived with lips
more scar tissue than skin. Our love came
unannounced in the middle of the night.
Our love came when we’d given up
on asking love to come. I think
that has to be part
of its miracle.
This is how we heal.
I will kiss you like forgiveness. You
will hold me like I’m hope. Our arms
will bandage and we will press promises
between us like flowers in a book.
I will write sonnets to the salt of sweat
on your skin. I will write novels to the scar
on your nose. I will write a dictionary
of all the words I have used trying
to describe the way it feels to have finally,
finally found you.
And I will not be afraid
of your scars.
I know sometimes
it’s still hard to let me see you
in all your cracked perfection,
but please know:
whether it’s the days you burn
more brilliant than the sun
or the nights you collapse into my lap
your body broken into a thousand questions,
you are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.
I will love you when you are a still day.
I will love you when you are a hurricane.
You finally realised what you are most afraid of being in a ldr - the feeling of having to settle your own emotions. You couldn’t really figure what a friend was trying to tell you, and you could not understand that feeling at all. You thought you were strong enough to handle it, but no. The feeling comes especially harder when you really want to talk/bitch/rant/pour out your emotions to someone, someone close to your heart, someone that only you can trust, someone that is you know will never betray you or speak of such sarcastic remarks, BUT the person can’t be there for you. He/she tells you to talk to someone else about it, and you know that feeling of being “pushed away” to talk to someone else, really really sucks. So much confusion and dilemma. On one hand, you really want to tell the person how sad you are, yet on the other hand you don’t want to be a mood killer. This is when all the thoughts of negative stories of ldr you have read or heard, starts to cloud your mind. You feel so alone, yet you know there are people out there who will listen, however you know there is only one person that you can fully trust with your entire heart. Handling your own emotions, really is very tough. But with all that tries to break you, makes you stronger, xx
Best kind of morning you wake up to @quanqitan #love #ldr #best #blissful #happy #skype
One weekend down! 📚📖 #finals #unilife #study #books #weekendburn #instasg #instaphoto #instadaily #igsg #igers #vsco #vscocam #overlay #picsart #brenoverlays
See you in 11 days ♡♡ @quanqitan #missyou #love #bgf #bestboyfriend #instaphoto #instadaily #instasg #igsg #igers